ANGRY AGAIN...THEN KI SIAO..

10/4/08
18 days to me...birthday!!

some1...made me angry...
tis few days had some problems wif my frens...
the mun pun n i r not ok yet...
2day told daniel fung tat i quarral wif him...
some1 said i very hot-tempered...
i very angry...
i said b4...dun like ppl to anyhow say me...
n tis person is the 1st one to say i m hot-tempered...
i knw my tempered is a bit wat...but the person nvr care hw i feel...
jus say it like tat...the person doesn't knw tat i m hurt alrdy...
the person thought i was joking...nothin wrong...but dunno tat the volcano inside me had erupt..
yesterday thing alrdy made me very angry...now this person made me angrier...
i smack the person at the bck....she took revenge...
the person dunno i angry mahs....
then i told her'wa lao...anyhow say ppl hot-temepered....'
then she say'u alrdy is like tat ma...'
tats wat i men she dun care hw i feel...
straightforward...
i very angry...then shouted at the person...somemore in canteen lor...
i said'fine!say anything u like....'
some ppl were alrdy looking at us...
the person thought i fake angry de....
I M NOT HOT-TEMPERED!!!!
is tat i tink i m wrong...i m wrong..
i tink i m not wrong...i m not wrong...
i dun wan do tis...but u wan me to...
i wun do....
i wun apologize if i tink i m not wrong!!!!
the person is one of my gans....
i was like thinkin...
tis person like no respect 4 me...although i m elder than her...
i was like...omg...i didn't tink tat she would turn out to be like tat...
tis person stood up 4 his/her bf/gf....(dun wish to reveal his/her gender)
then tis person said b4....
between frens n stead...
she would choose frens...
now he/she stood up 4 his/her stead...
i was very angry tat tis person say oni...
nvr take it as real...
between stead n frens...rather choose frens....
then 2day sms mun pun...
told him tat...i very very angry.....
tis time he reali made me mad...
last time scold my godbro 'fck off'
now...'de siao' me then say he angry....
wth!!???
i say losing 1 fren like him...i don gv a damn!
cos oni knew each other 4 few mths...
lose tis fren...i wun feel sad...
unless is 1 fren who hv been wif me 4 yrs...
like the person who say i m hot-tempered...
i told her i can 4gv her...as we r gans n many yrs le...
but as 4 tat guy....no way...do not intend gving him another chance...
bcos of these 2 problems....i almost cried 2day...
mun pun was older than me...so???
he is not 13....so???
so can bully ppl izzit??
yesterday actually feeling better after kor tok 2 me...
but gt angrier after another thng happened 2day...
nvrm....over liow...but still very mad...


Another thing was....
2day the 2 candidates who were chosen to be the president of the student counsellor came...
Aini came first...then Wei Sheng...they both came in wif some supporters..(i tink)
with wei sheng...there were....HAHA.....him....haha...everybody were saying..
''belle,belle...him leh...him leh...''(sry ppl,cant reveal their names..)
she was laughing....she dare not look up...hahas....she was laying down on the table laughing...
hahahahahahaha...we were too....hahas.....
vincent heard his name being called...hahas...
i wan laugh out loud sia...very very loud!!!!
2day i gt a bit sot...cos angry...then later bcame siow....hahas....
still can laugh now...oso dunno now i angry or siow??
hahas....
then 2day b4 video editing lesson...i was laughing like hell...i bcame mad...
cos we all were making fun of belle n erica...hahas.....
i oso dunno who started it first lor....
they were saying...mrs ***...n mrs *****...then they 2 dun wan bother abt us...
hahas....then some of us were saying...
''i love u...i r *******''-tis was 4 belle...
then i was saying...''i love u belle...i m...kai wen''
they were all laughing hard...
hahas.....
then they say''i love u...i m *******''
hahas.....hahahahaha
then tis girl n some of us says''we love u...''
she say'' i m *******'',another say''i m *******''
they two were laughing oso...
until 1 time we tried they walk away...
hahas....
they were not angry la....
they knw we were jokin....
but i oso dun wan go overboard so...stop le...
hahas....2day quite a lot of happy things happen....

haiz...i hope i can hv a loss of memory abt the unhappy things...rmb all the happy one...
dun wan tok abt him lerh...
tok more abt him...oni make me angrier...
i wanna be happy...jus like i was in TKPS...
but i knw i couldn't...
bcos i had to see his face 4 4yrs...
mayb not same class...
i will be reali happy if we r not the same class....
seeing him now...makes me reali unhappy n angry...
i almost cried 2day...
bcos of him...my meii stood up 4 him.....
i wanna go bck pri sch life!!!!
i wish time could rewind!!!
so tat i would not hv to tolerate such things tat make me sad...
I M REALI HEARTBROKEN......

u all dunno how i feel except those close to me de....
okkayss...end liow la....
i finallly can express my feelings out on my blog...
feel better after typing all tis n telling some close ppl....

I M A HUMAN!!!I HAVE FEELING OKAYS!!??
I M NOT COLD-BLOODED...I CAN FEEL!!!
BUT U CANT FELL THE PAIN,ANGRINESS N SADNESS IN ME!!!