fucked up!

i am fucked up now.today's post wont be good.
i am damn angry,unhappy and disappointed.
i didnt expect this day to come.fuckkkk
2 stupid damn problems came at the same time.
thats why i am so fucked up.
suddenly,just yesterday i came back home
and saw that damn msg!
nobody know how it hurts!its like hundred of stabbing
into my heart!the pain,agony and sadness
you will never know.only somebody knows the pain.
i finnaly know how u feel.of cos i couldnt take it.
of cos i would cry.only some ppl would know.
i put on a face which didnt show how i feel.
u didnt know,i did want to see you.but its reality
i replied your msg,but u didnt.and i hate you for that!
why must you do that to me?
at least give me a reason!a reply!
only care for brothers?likely story!how about her?
1 year have past.why dont u tell me earlier?
i once have no feelings for u already.
but,i told myselfi couldnt do that.
i couldnt be selfish,cos you are not mine.
u have your own choice and decision.
u can choose to or not to.i cant stop u.
becos i cant be so selfish.
i haven recover from yesterday.i still cry.
of cos it hurts,a lot,a lot.spare a thought.
u could just tell me that,but cant we continue on that
relationship?or be good friends?i dont like the way now.
I HATE IT!look,I HATE IT!
another problem not solved.
my mum took my phone out into the living room!
i hate it too.i couldnt chat with mun pun and others
cos i am very confused and fucked up this few days
cannot sms,i shall call him!
fucking ppl!and some ppl will msg me to ask me
things,asshole!
ahhhhhhhh!i wish i were at the beach right now!
i wanna scream out everything!
had basketball tarining todayy,
i put my anger on the ball.felt more relax.
i wan my phone back into my rooooooom
i shall go mad soon!fed up with everything!
alright!i just hope everything didnt happen!
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKED UPP!!!!!!!!!
*SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why must you hurt me?
broke my heart and cried for you.
can you just dont do that.
just tell me and let continue on
that relationship?
i treat you as someone very important
in my heart,1 year
and this has come to an end.
didnt you told me once,forever?
i didnt want this to happen.
you really hurt me through.
i put on a smile,but that was a lie.
i didnt feel happy.i just hope u didnt
say that.i might not be able to recover
so fast.maybe a few days?
a few weeks?a few months?
forever?crying for you.
FYI,ppl,this above note,the person is not my BF!
he's just someone very important to me