up and down

yeah,i am confused now.angry,sad while a bit happy?
am i mad or something?i dont know.
haha.confused because i am confused?
angry cos my mum still dont give me back my dumbass
phone?sad cos just now i quarralled with her
and i hate this fucking life?a bit happy cos training tomorow
and i dont have to see her?anyway,i got my phone back,but
i couldnt bring it to school.she doesnt let.but my dad does.
fuck.i wanted to tell her to sell my phone then ask dad buy
another one so i can bring to school
cos my current phone,she bought for me,i had to listen to her.
if my dad bboughme one.i could have brought it to school.
fuck la.i just put a note on my phone and maybe she read
and she might just understand?yeah.
i wrote,fucker,i hate you.
i hate this fucking life.i am just like that.
yeah,and i am just like that,i am who i am.what can you do?
so,todayy,i seems so sian in doing everything.
i seems to lose interest in doing all stuffs,studying too.
and tuition just make me fall asleep.and lessons are just boring.
talked to my dad about phone today.and mum,
i dun wanna talk about it.i get pissed off.
guys having friendly match tomorow with peicai,
so i am going early to watch!yeah!cos playing basketball
can let me release my anger and i forget about everything
happening at home.and when i go back,i just give one jiaobin.
i look angry and sad at home.cos i dont even want to go home.
it just make me feels sad.being with friends makes me happy.
like i talked to fiona today.and i wanted to post some pictures yesterday
of total defence day.but somebody just didnt let me.
it was a torture on that day.under the bright hot sun!
i had blue ink on my shirt today and hand to.
haha,yu fei kena on his pants and fiona kena on shirt,hands and face!
cos mun pun's pen leak ink,then he go dip the ink
ongrace and my table.then fiona spray it on the cardboard
behing.masterpiece.haha.talking to fiona now.bad girl,so late haven sleep.
okay la,i know FIONA NG,有前途！:)
looking forward to tomorow cos after training will be staying.
and i dont wan to be home so early.i dont wanna make myself mad.
it only hurts myself,my emotions.i have friends to entertain me!
i hate being stuck at home.my mum ust told me she would disappear
someday,and i was thinking,maybe when you havent disappear,
i already did!i ahd thoughts go going away,running away.
but i just couldnt bring myself to do it.
only baketball and music can let me release my anger.
and i am happy that there is always something to let
me do that.i just showed her attitude and didnt care much.
okayy,its late alright.i am goinggggg!byeeee!
i wanna add a little thing.some asshole tkps student just
kena from me and fiona just now.shout shout shout!
we scold him den he scold back.
den fiona sk him come here talk then humji dont dare come.

some freaking people just get into
my way,fucking retarded bitches.
i wished you would see me.
i dont want to be transparent.