halfway to success!

JCMR- why keep asshole-ing me? -.- madzz. hhahahaha. love you
Ben- hey you suck man, must zoom in la. next time show you.
Mandy- okay, can you leave me a offline msg in msn, i'll give you there
Erica- where got? i got give you link lehs. i also want A-MATHS!


currently busy these few days.
many things happened for the last few days.
yeah, mostly unhappy things.

from what happened during wednesday.
mdm chan wants to changed all our places.
and i was fucking unhappy.
but never mind.

thursday, last day sitting at own place.
teacher let us see where we are sitted.
and was happy i didnt change.

friday, i was more fucked up.
teacher didnt change my place.
but mostly did change.
and somebody didnt want to change, so miss oh asked me to change.
wtf can? i didnt want. okay, sound stupid.
i didnt know why tears started coming out.
i had my own reasons that i didnt want to say.
i wanted to be with erica they all.
but its okay, i already agreed to change.
and sitting with cedric isnt bad.
cos i dont mind sitting with him, i just ,loved my previous place.
still, i am near maureen.

i was fuck angry that day, so i didnt talk much.
i am happy that fiona cheered me up and the rest too.
last period, went to do a survey.
then went to eat at techview.
and some people take there as their own home.
training after that, last training.
i dont know whether to be happy or what.
hah. coach first time let us play 5 v 5.
fun luh.
after training, went off with fiona, jacinda and charlene.
pei charlene wait for bus and then off to bubbletea!
kkkk, they made me so high and happy.
we were so mad.
went cc after that, some fucking idiots dont know manners.
i was damn fucked up with charles again.
just too pathetic. dont want to care anymore.

helping dad clean his stall this few days.
hari raya coming. he worked till very late.
today, i went to study at mac with jacinda!
(i dont know why i cant concentrate with others)
my dearest keai<3
and watching some stupid videos made me laughed like fuck.
happy being together with her.
her smile is another cure for sadness.

i dont know what to do for tomorow.
hahahah. halfway through writing notes for physics.
chioooooong for eoy!
i need to get better marks for science.
and i need to manage my maths, eng and chinese and geog at the same time.
trying.
i can, i must.

currently, all the jobs i wanted to do in the future , the subjects are not what i wanted to take.
except for art:) i loveeeeeee

miss oh talked to me already.
i am not unreasonable or what.
i'm not angry with you not wanting to change place.
i dare not be angry with you, later you go hurt yourself again then my fault.
i dont hurt myself to get sympathy or what.
i dont know whats bad about cedric.
he's good too, he's our friend.
i dont mind sitting with him, i just want my place back.
but miss oh said no.
she told me why she had asked me to change instead of you already.
and i dont want to say.
she say she will talk to you. i dont know when.
i will be changing seats next tues.
happy? satisfied?
i made this choice because i dont want the others to see that face of yours,
you know what, on friday.
that face, which nobody wants to see.
so in order not to see that face expression of yours again, i agreed to change.
you dont have to say anything.
and i say again, i DARE not be angry with you.

the above msg is not for anyone, the one should know.



i still havent forget you.
cos i cant, cos i love you.
i know its wasting time,
but i cant seem to let go.
maybe i'll try to give chances.
but it still depends.
i havent seen you for a while and i missed you.