disappointing

got back all my results today.
i was utterly disappointed with myself.
totally screwed up everything.
especially chinese and both maths.
didnt expect that i did so badly, failed eng for the first time.
didnt even meet my own expectations.
didnt know that it would turn out so badly.
this is the first time i did so badly ever in my life.
i felt so disappointed in myself for the first time.
last time, i used to laugh it off and forget about it, i knew i can always do better.
i already expected to fail amaths, but i really want to do well.

mum talked to me just now.
she's right, there is still end of year.
i should buck up for english.
i am gonna have eng tuition soon.
i only got an A for midyears.

i wont be defeated by you.
i will not compare myself with you because i know i can always do better and be ahead of you.
you never seem to study but yet you got higher.
its okay, i know i will do better than you again.
maybe you're just lucky this time.
so please dont show off to others or be a proud peacock.

i'm super happy i passed sci!
and i passed chem with the marks i wanted.
i didnt expect that i would pass poa.
but i did. maybe it was easier.
and amaths was really difficult, nobody can deny that.
the results i got today as compared to term1 was a drastic fall.
its like just one night and you lost everything.

finally, i let out my stress today.
i found some excuse to relieve it.
and i need to let go of my disappointment and work harder from now onwards.
of course, i would take breaks, but still will study.
maybe i just didnt study hard enough for this midyear.
all the best subjects went so down and down.
i shouldnt disappoint my mum, teachers and myself anymore.
i wanna do well for end of year.
i will do well for end of year.




the feeling i have now is 1000 times more than what i feel last end of year.

thanks for cheering me up my dears:)

Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.

Confucius

(its your choice)

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.

Theodore Roosevelt

(you will never know if you never try)

Arguing with a fool proves there are two.

Doris M. Smith

(so i'm gonna tolerate) 

Life is a tragedy for those who feel, and a comedy for those who think.

La Bruyere

(life can be good)

The essential thing is not knowledge, but character.

Joseph Le Conte

(having good character is important)

No man is happy who does not think himself so.

Publilius Syr (be happy)

                            

                 

Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.
Aristotle 

(do you even know youself well?)