i dont know how

someday i might just lose all my feelings and forget how to love.

because it may not be necessary 

because nobody cares before that

because people take things for granted

because everyone doesnt cherish the things around them

because people are to proud to give in

because people let the devil inside them rise

because they think its okay

because they think too highly of themselves

sometimes while travelling, 

i think to myself, why are there such people in the world?

why god create people who brings burdens to this society?

is this a punishment?

why cant everybody just be nice?

maybe if everyone is too nice, there will be nobody bad?

and no bad people means the world is not exciting anymore?

why cant young people give up seats?

why cant parents teach their child just like kids back in the 90's?

all these questions aroused me.

and more often,

i think about problems with my friends.

their personality, everything they do, how they treat me,

why are they like that etc.

i choose my friends wisely so i didnt expect anyone to betray me.

because i hold on to memories tight and i would always think about it

and i would cherish our friendship that much.

you may not know it but each of them are important.

especially the ones i've been with for 4 years.