friend?

i am really trying hard to be a good friend.

but it seems that my efforts are not very appreciated.

asking once and getting no replies is okay.

asking the second time and still getting no replies,

that really shows that how much this friendship means to everyone.

i try to understand that people are busy,

financial problems etc.

but when it comes to things like these,

i really hope everyone would take out some time,

spend it with us.

i get tired at times,

trying to hold our friendship together.

i told myself that its okay if i have you guys in my heart.

but sometimes, its never okay.

planning of outing sometimes end up being ruined,

because of last minutes back-outs,

which i could understand for some.

we just havent met up for a very long time,

the whole group of us, even if its just for lunch/dinner.

about 2 months of holiday,

and not a single time our outing was complete.

i've tried.

and i do grow tired trying to pull us together.

maybe i'm forcing, but i dont want to lose this.