nightmare

many people would want siblings, especially those 'only child',

i never said i wouldn't want any, but not too many.

siblings fight, quarrel, but eventually make up, without any awkwardness.

i used to quarrel a lot with my younger sister, but we just talked naturally

after. i guess that's the some sort of 'power' between siblings?

out of all, i think my brother is the nicest, most obedient,

maybe because we had much in common. but in all, the younger two never

created any trouble for me. or even piss me off until i wanna explode.

and then came this one, the youngest sister. its a nightmare, i swear.

i feel guilty for being selfish and all, but i wished she would just shut her mouth.

or if anybody desires a sister, you can have her.

you know how annoying and irritating it can be when she talks back to you?

especially when your age gap is like 5 years apart. no basic respect even.

and now my dad keeps siding with her, of course, he doesn't even know

the evil things she did. shall no mention it.

she can do stuffs that makes me extremely annoyed and pissed, i had to scold her.

at times, i even want to give her a slap. i controlled, because i didn't want

to get violent. all those words coming from her, learning how to talk back,

the vulgarities... i did play a part in this but she learned it mostly from her friends.

no idea what kind of friends she made, really hate them.

she didn't want to study, isn't very obedient, and lie her way out.

i tried to be nice, but when we are too nice, she gets overboard.

well, i admit, sometimes i'm at fault.

i had my reasons for treating her like that, people may see me as a bad sister.

but my close friends know how's she's like.

scolding me, talking back, lying etc.

a lot of things happened this year related to her, which of two incidents are

involving me. yes, i was pretty angry. how can i not be.

sometimes she can be nice, asking what we want to eat/drink and going down to get

it for us. but sometimes she just pisses you off for no reasons.

even when you did not provoke her, she'll start to fire at you first,

tell me how not to get angry. now, my brother is being the nicest to her.

i wouldn't want to be. this little devil has a lot in her mind, even though

i have no idea why she can't put her brains to good use, like studying?

she pretends to be an angel when she needs a favor, or she needs to borrow

something. reasons why i don't want to lend it to her, 

she'll be an angel and be nice to you when she needs something, and

when i give it to her, the next moment you know, that devil is back.

how is it that me and the other two siblings can talk together but not with her?

although at times i get angry over little stuffs, might be because i just woke up

or i'm not in a good mood. yes, i have to control and change my temper.

another annoying thing is, if my mum doesn't wake her up exactly on time,

even if its just 5 minutes late, she'll make a fuss and throw tantrums.

and most of the time, she woke me up, i was trying to sleep!

she stomps her feet, moan and cry and yell, 6.30am in the morning!

she used a freaking hell of half and hour in the toilet tying her hair, tying all sorts

of hairstyles for i don't know why.

i know no matter what,i can't change the fact that she is my sister.

i will try to be nice, if she is nice too, and if she doesn't anger me to the extreme

that i really want to slap her. i think some people feel my pain, of the youngest siblings.

i don't know if its some kind of tradition or genes in asian families,

but most of the youngest siblings tend to be the devil in the house.