not twice

i cherish all my friendships, i really do. 

but when there's quarrels we can't avoid, at times i try to give in.

for small little things, i don't wanna tear it apart.

but when i think i'm not in the wrong, i definitely won't apologize.

even if the other person thinks i'm in the wrong.

sorry but this is my pride, i'm determined to hold it up.

i could forgive easily but not everytime. i held tightly to each and every memories

we all shared. but, i held on once, i will not hold on it again for a second time.

unless i wouldn't want to lose this particular person or he/she is very important.

it's really hurtful when someone you think was a very good friend actually said

things that would hurt you. and to only realise how scary that person could be.

and you realise how much you do not understand this person.

i wanted to hold on, i really do.

actions may speak louder than words, but words can kill.

i can't describe how upset i felt but i do admit i was at some fault.

there was never someone who ever said those things to me, i wasn't even ready.

people whom i've let go in the past, we could start over again, but not all.

第一次原谅是宽容

第二次是善良
第三次是愚蠢
wished you never said those words.
i don't know if it's me, but you've changed.

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1. spending too much recently.
2. i don't know if i don't understand today's econs topic or if i'm sleepy.
3. i hate wednesday.
4. i need to save money.
5. phewtick seems kinda fun.
6. i hope saturday would be fun.
7. i hope those people would just appreciate what i do for them.
8. don't take my effort for this friendship for granted.
9. i don't wanna go school tomorrow.
10. i don't know which diploma to choose.

all of the above are just random thoughts for the day