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i really wonder sometimes, who are those being true to me?
who are those who are genuine?
i know i don't nee to have many friends to be happy,
just a few true ones, who will always be there, who will never disappoint you.
just a few, its enough for me, to be happy.
but sometimes when i take people as my true friends, it seems like they
take it for granted, and i always feel disappointed.
maybe its just me and my temper, but i can't help but feel this way.
what do i actually mean to you guys?
and i thought true friends are suppose to listen and to speak up.
and plans always falls apart when one or two are not even replying.
someone took the initiative to plan, to suggest, and hoping everyone would
be able to meet up, but why are some not even replying?
that's what disappoint me most, trying so hard to meet up and then the plan falls apart.
its so hard for us to even meet up nowadays due to our conflicting schedules in school.
i feel like not everyone is committed enough to keep up this friendship,
and i think someday, we will all break up.

but, i truly thank two people in my life.
it seems so much easier to plan and meet up with them,
even if its just a simple meet up for ice-cream.
and i always find comfort in their words whenever i'm feeling down.
there would always be one of them who would cheer me up,
someone who sides with me all the time,
someone who always makes me feel better.
maybe because we've know each other for more than 4 years,
and it isn't easy for us to come such a long way.
of course we had fights.
but nevertheless, these two are always the ones i would want to keep,
and sometimes i feel so apologetic for missing them out on some stuffs.
over the years, we built trust, and we built our friendship to be stronger.
thank you Erica & Tzehui, for letting me realise who are those truly genuine to me.