waste?

bought some books a while back and i havent been reading them.
i mean i have started but i stopped recently, because i was lazy.
i wonder when would i ever finish them. i have like 4 books unfinished.
omg.. felt that i'm wasting money...
i should get my motivation and finish them.


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i dont see the point anymore.
why is it that because someone in the group doesn't turn up,
due to perfectly acceptable and reasonable reasons,
one of the other person in the group would also find excuses not to?
i mean, i know that person is important, but aren't we all important too?
i dont feel like seeing some people's faces anymore.
so rather than being angry, i can only make do with what's left,
and feel disappointed rather than making myself miserable over it.
i give up on this person, the second one.

goodnight :)