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i tried getting use to all the commitments.
maybe we had a different definition of "friends"
because we know where we put that.
maybe i just had to find someone who put "friends"
the same rank as i do and i'll be better?
i cannot deny i have my fault in thinking like that.
because i used to tell myself to be generous and be supportive
of whatever you do and whatever reasons you have,
because that's what best friends are suppose to do.
i tried, really. but it seems that i needed more support
now than last time.
and whenever i thought of...if i'm in trouble,
i know it wouldn't be you that would be there.
because we both know there's always something more
important than this.
i know we are clear of what is first, and i really hate to get
into a quarrel or conversation about what's more important.
i always thought i wouldn't let this "thing" be an obstacle to
our friendship... but it eventually did, i grew tired of it.
i would still like to keep this up, but i thought i might put lesser effort
in it.
sorry.