selfish or selfless

i cannot say that i am happy with this end results/outcome
of whatever had happened, but neither can i say that i am unhappy with it.
for some reasons or so, it may be better, or not.
i know people change, especially during this time where we get
to meet the diversity/variety of people.
and the people we interact with are those we also help shape ourselves.
i like to believe we make friends by choice and not by going to those
you think you can be friends but maybe not, like sort of a forcing yourself to do so.
not particularly about anyone, just in case people come asking questions or
getting all paranoid. its just that you can notice change, you can sense it.
i dont know if i'm being selfish or selfless by having this tiny bit of happiness
inside me for some reason. because it might or might not be the best choice
made.