reality

its not that i'm bias towards other countries,

or that i despise singapore guys.

but i must say, in this society,

everybody judges.

i judge to, my first impression on how one character is,

is based on the person's look.

i dont know why i tend to see it this way.

which guy doesnt want a pretty girlfriend,

which girl doesnt want a cute boyfriend?

rarely, there are people who doesnt mind looks of their partners.

yes i do, but i dont need that person to be extremely good looking.

i see hot guys when i go out, but that doesnt mean i want my bf to be like that.

normally i would check out the guys and just leave it behind.

because i know, a girl like me, wouldnt catch their attention.

i just want a guy who has good personality and his looks,

are average cute, i mean, if he looks cute to me,

i dont really care how other people thinks.

i dont have flawless skin like koreans,

and thats a flaw that i really hate it a lot.

but most guys here, they judge by looks.

they choose you by looks,

and then the character comes after that.

''i want a girl who really cares for me''

oh yeah? 

but when the girl is not pretty? you forget what you said before.

one reason i dont really have much interest in singapore guys,

they see looks. 

but not all.

thats why i only see and i dont hope much.

unlike european guys whom are much open,

they dont really care how you look like,

of cos not all of them are like that.

but still, i will prefer european guys than to singaporean guys.

so i always wanted to get a chance to study overseas :)

well, i do hope that as i grow, my face will become better?

i mean my skin. not totally flawless but in good condition.

i always find myself so hideous looking when i wake up in the morning.

under the sunlight, i could see how 'flaw' my skin is.

sigh.

a decision to make.

after 18, i wanna try going for treatment.

because my mum doesnt really think it will help.

but i do.  hahahah.

so i guess it also have got something to do with my daily intake of food?

i must restrict myself to oily food, fried food, unhealthy food.

and i must exercise which i havent been doing for like 124652 years?

kidding, almost a year.

i need to sleep early and wake up early.

like sleeping at 12-1am?

waking up at 9-10am?

drink more water, wash my face daily. 

most importantly, be happy :)

and, no more late night heavy supper.

i cant resist supper but i can try to cut down on the intake.

I AM VAIN, I WANNA BE PRETTY.

which girl doesnt wants?

a female star that really makes me go 'wow' for her looks,

EMMA WATSON.

i really find her super pretty.